I have been taught so many times that the harder I try, the farther I go. It’s 22.04 here in this typical room, this one girl sitting in front of her laptop.. tick tick tick.. Time passes minute by minute slowly. This one book, she has been studying for so long, why does it feel like it will never end? I could have been somewhere else, wandering around and see the world, the lights, the skies and everything ! Still, all these books are getting thicker and the piles are growing so quickly. The feeling of tiredness shoves at me like waves hitting the shores. There’s somewhere in my mind, making that creaking sound.. is it some kind of a sign? Perhaps, my mind’s yelling something, begging for help.. like a tiny little mouse trapped in such a huge cave, doesn’t know where else to go.
It’s just another way of saying “I am bored of studying”. I’ve been studying English Literature for a while, all I ever got from my teacher is that she always uses plenty of unnecessary words. But let us forget about literature for a while, because now I’m stuck with Asian Philosophy. I’m probably only one in not many students from my class who’s reading all these lecture notes. To be honest, I am lost in this fantasy philosophical world and don’t think that I will be getting back soon. By lost, I mean literally lost ; another definition of “I got nothing from this class”.
The point I’m trying to make here is, studying may not mean learning; and learning may not mean studying. I can learn about several things in life by just walking down the streets, all I need is a pair of ‘wondering eyes’. Everywhere you print your footsteps on can be your classroom, you learn from looking, listening and making mistakes. I am absolutely not suggesting that education is not important, but it’s a waste of supplies if you don’t provide it properly to children. For instance, one of my teachers. He absolutely murmurs sentences when he’s giving us lectures. He doesn’t let us interact, neither with him nor in groups. How’s it possible for pupils to learn in his class? I suppose we are just lumps of meat placed in seats ! He calls it ‘studying’, if he asked these people what they have ‘learned’ from class, they would say ‘nothing’. And you expect your young generations to receive ‘effective education’ Oh, p-lease.
Another day of my life spent on self-studying, which I suppose is more ‘effective’ than sitting in class acting like nerds. Yet, this pile of homework is really bothering me. I’ve got 2 chapters and 1 philosophy book to finish in A WEEK. Don’t even mention Spanish classes and others ! Giving out assignments could be a great way for students to review knowledge they’ve received from lectures, but this amount is excessive. ” Oh, I love tons of homework” said by no one ever.
To be precise, I like learning ; by learning I mean being able to understand the lessons that are taught, and being able to explore those hidden aspects of everything by discussing with groups of people. It should be all for today and perhaps I should finish this enormous book before it’s too late. How do you think of studying?